Life in the eyes of a 17 years old
Life is funny and filled with different people and different obstacles. Obstacles that are sometimes quite difficult to overcome. And what I’ve learnt is that God gives his strongest battles to his strongest soldiers and it’s true cause I can testify to it. Even so I’m only 17 and I have overcome some mighty battles.
Life is oddly very hurtful and amazing at the same time. Weird to say but it’s the truth, using God in every obstacle it then becomes easier and less hurtful to overcome. Then that comfort that I am looking for in him and no one else. Even if it’s been found in a human being most times nothing is permanent, it’s back to being hurtful and pain, agony! I am only temporary to almost everyone I know. That’s hurtful but it’s given me hope of the new coming days. Hope of a better life, with less pain.
Pain can’t be completely gone. This world is 75% evil so it would always come. Therefore pain will always exist. Starts from friends, family, those whose purpose is to break. Comes with their gestures, words, actions, what has been started and never continued with. Pain is hurtful, very hurtful. And every individual deals with it differently.
If i want to cry, I’ll cry.
If in sad moments I want to smile, I’ll smile and no one will tell me differently.
If I want to cut I’ll cut and no one tell me differently, because you’re not there to take my pain away.
If I want to pray and scream out i will, Because I know God will hear.
If I want to be rebellious allow me, because you were never there for me.
If I want to change, boost me and allow me too .
If I want to die, help me!
But that’s not the end. Life is too precious.
Too precious to end it because of pain.
It’s disturbing how deceiving a smile maybe. If a smile is shown, You’re happy.
A smile is a mask. A beautiful mask used to shield, and to lock away pain. A mask no one can explain how to put it on with the pain. It’s easy to endure pain. So someone once said to me. I asked “have you ever felt pain? Pain that kills you with only one strike ” Have you ever felt it?
She responded yes
I asked her to explain further
She went on then saying
“Pain feels like bullets being shot over and over into your heart, Pain weighs you down. Its kills you without realizing”
And the pain I’m talking about deals with depression. Pain and life goes hand in hand as far as i could see.
Pain defines life
Life defines pain
Life for some people is a painless battle but for some people life is a very painful battle
Even so I’m 17 and life has been like climbing mount Everest.
Life in the eyes of a 17 years old
I declare ITS PAINFUL!!!!!!!
But I’ve learnt to live with it. To live with the pain and to turn to God. God is amazing! He is alive! And We’d better start believing that. Because when he starts he is going to finish. The blessings, the pain, the sorrow all will be gone. When he is ready to take you out of the situation. He will and when he does it would be an unexplained experience. But to get there we have obstacles to face. Up and down. Rocky roads and so much more. To overcome these obstacles. You need to be consistent. But it’s surprising how people make comments like;
“You’ll be out of there just keep your eye on the goal”
“I bet there’s someone out there going through worse than you”
Yes, It is true! But I’d ask have you ever stepped in my shoes? Do you know what it feels like to be going through what I’m going through? Are you aware of how much I endure?
If not then such a statement shouldn’t be, because only when you’re in the present situation you can explain what it feels like. Until then disregard this statement.
In the end, tell me to endure, show me how to endure.
I’ve learnt to endure.
Because I know I have too, I know I have to endure it and do not avoid it or give up, because I cannot, I just cannot give up.
For a soldier of God should never give up, just not so easily and especially not to something like pain.